Funny how even though I'm in a team sport no one seems to hear or see me. I'm just invisible. They do enjoy yelling at me when the ball was supposed to be theirs in volleyball because I can no longer be bothered to fight back. I don't seem to ever be a priority, maybe that could have been one of the causes of my eating disorder, I never knew why it started. Maybe I decided that if I faded away people wouldn't be able to blame me anymore.
To be honest, I'm scared of my parents. They even do anything particularly bad, we just have communication problems and they always express their disapproval of everything I do. I'm not good enough for them.
Anyway today is Ash Wednesday and even though I'm not a Catholic, I decided that the giving up of something is a good concept. So after witnessing the Mind Body Spirit Festival, I have decided to give up swearing and to try being a Vegan. Sort of to test myself and see if I can live without my normal comforts and defenses.
From, Dorcha
Those sound like two wonderful things to give up for lent. I haven't decided if I'm giving up anything yet. I'm sorry that you feel invisible to everyone around you. I feel that way a lot of the time too. Keep your head up.
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