Binging, I hate it. That feeling of failure and the sickness that comes with being overly full. Stress, stress, stress, stress. The school councilor went and said she was going to tell my parents about my eating problems and I was left thinking 'I'm never going to talk to you ever again.' I talked to her once since February and out of the blue she wants me to see a doctor because I eat to much. I know I eat to much. You don't need to tell me something I already know but thanks for help kill my low self esteem and sense that maybe I was slightly alright.
I'm going to force myself to stop. I can't do this anymore, and now people are noticing that I've put on weight and I just want to hit something and scream. Being the person I am, no one will every see me hit something or scream because I'm an emotional brick. I suppose it's the thought that counts though. I'll just loose this and get to 40kg, then everything will be alright again.
I'm sorry to hear you're struggling with binging. I know it's hard, but please know that these people aren't judging you; they're reaching out because they care, because they know you're struggling.
ReplyDeleteStay strong <3 xx