Today I decided to go to the Mind Body Spirit Festival because I wanted a new experience, and that is what I got. The festival featured many things such as psychics, naturopaths, massage therapists and general well being stalls. After being vegan for several years I found it to be unexpectedly eye opening and calming. I liked the new ideas that I gained and the acceptance I discovered there.
At first I just wanted to visit and receive a psychic reading, while on my way I encountered a person who I hadn't talked to in years since the first time I went into inpatient. She looked so good and healthy that I didn't even recognize her until she told me who she was. How could she have recovered so well while I just seemed to keep getting worse? Was my immediate thought before she explained that she gained an understanding of herself and how to make peace with her body and mind. I realised that it was possible to recover and that changing the thoughts really did change the entirety of the illness. It was interesting to see the power of will.
At my tarot reading I only remember three cards, the Devil, the Lover and the Sun. It was all completely true and the Lover appeared about 5 times throughout the day, one had the number 33 on the corner and I couldn't help but be a bit freaked out because of my life's relation to the number 3.
I visited a few seminars and found out that my sister who committed suicide in 2006 is my spirit guide and has been trying to tell me to move on, even though I can't seem to. It was a comfort to hope that someone somewhere was still trying to look after me, that someone cared.
I tried at least 20 different teas and people seemed to be understanding about my habits, they even seemed curious and seemed to interpret them as a spirit connection.
All in all, I am glad that I went. I probably won't leave the house for a while now because I'm pretty stressed but I like knowing that there really are people out there who can accept and acknowledge that you are the way you are and that you can't simply decide to change one day.
That sounds like such a wonderful experience. I'm glad that you went. And the girl you ran into has a good point. It's very difficult to come to peace with your body. I believe that my brother is my spiritual guide as well, although I've never had anyone confirm that for me. I hope all else is well.
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