A talk of Obsessions

After reading this I began thinking about obsessions that I have, and how they can affect my life. It's a curious thing how a person can become so involved in something that it becomes a habit, a routine or almost a need. Much of my life revolves around these things, and everyone seems to have their own. The news displays obsessions that have gone wrong, or obsessions that have lead to accomplishments.

This can be seen through the portrayal of terrorists, people who commit crimes that cause harm to others in society, or threaten to do so. They are people who have become obsessed with the idea that there is something wrong with the world and it is their job to correct it. These are the obsessions that have been said to have gone wrong.

An example of an accomplished obsession can be seen in many business people, entrepreneurs or students that are described as 'driven.' They are people who are obsessed with achievement in their particular fields and strive to meet all expectations in relation to work. They are the idols in society whether they are admired or ostracized due to their successes and failures.

On a more local level though, many people become obsessed with celebrities, hobbies and other pursuits. These are the obsessions that have lead me to analyzing the pros and cons attached to each of my own and some others that I have noticed in my peers.

Over the course of my blog I have noticed that much of what I write about is the flaws and problems in my life, almost a whine or outlet journal. You may have noticed that I struggle with an eating disorder and it seems to cause me a lot of grief. This is the source of my first obsession.

Food. My relationship with food has always been erratic, switching between love and hatred, starvation and binge. Rather than talk about the pros and cons of food though, I would like to address what I have gained and lost due to this particular obsession. Firstly, I have lost a lot of my life, spending much of it in hospitals and states of depression. It has confined and isolated me from people I have once called friends and made my family life chaotic and temperamental to say the least. It has lead my to the edge of death, through the illness and personal choice and I know it will be with me for the rest of my existence. Now you may be thinking, 'how is there any good associated with this?' Well, even though I have lost a lot, I gained an appreciation of the happy times when they appear. I have been able to decipher who my true friends are and have been strengthened through their continuous support. My family may been broken, but I was finally able to speak clearly about the problems that existed within our system with the mediation that is a psychologist.

I have learned that I can control things and that I can achieve goals if I dedicate myself to them. Finally, my expectations are never low.

Music. My pursuit of music, both through an instrument and through bands, has lead me to many hours of practice and procrastination. It has taken my money because of the merchandise, cds and tickets I feel I need to buy and the dedication to keep up-to-date has left me with less sleep than usual due to their living in other countries. Through this though, I have gained a level of skill in piano and some other instruments as well as being more open minded towards the differences of other cultures and fans.


These are simply two of my obsessions and how they affect my life. Feel free to comment yours.

From,
Dorcha xx