Purge

I purged for the first time in a very long time today and... it was so easy. I just stuck my fingers down my throat and the food just came up from my stomach. It doesn't even burn, it's just like spitting in a sink or something. I didn't do it for long, I hated myself as soon as I started. Why did I do it? I really don't want to go back to every day of my life depending on chucking up every meal I eat. I have a slight headache but I'm otherwise fine as if nothing even happened.

Fuck this life! I don't want to do this anymore. I hate it but I know I'm not going to do anything to stop it, why did my own mum and brother call me fat? Now I know I am. Again.

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