So sick

Recently I have just been stuffing my face with everything my mum puts in front of me just to pretend that I'm fine with how I look. I feel sick, bloated, fat, huge and disgusting. I can't stand it anymore, looks like I'm going to just start restricting where she can't see me. Like school. Its repulsive the amount of food I have been taking in recently I'm going to work as hard as I can to get rid of it.